24 weeks complete!

so i'm 24 weeks today. only 16 weeks until my due date - just 3 little months, one of those being the shortest month of the year. yup, nervousness is starting to set in.

i'm officially back to my maiden name, in all legal ways. driver's license, social security, all credit cards, bank accounts, etc. thank god. divorce is 100% final, and i'm getting back to my normal life (as much as possible, being pregnant).

in other divorce news, my LOVELY ex-husband IS engaged to the girl he was cheating on me with when I asked for the divorce/left him. i knew they were fooling around because of the hotel room, the dinner, and the flowers on our JOINT accounts before i moved out....he's a genius. or he wanted to hurt me, which ever you believe. anyway, the date listed on our divorce papers as our "separation date" is february 4, 2006. the naive little girl he's brainwashed into marrying him this time (she's younger than i am, and he and i were 9.5 years apart - he gets more and more disgusting the more i think about him) made a registry page on macys.com, and smart, smart me found it. however, he asked this lovely little whore to marry him on february 1, 2006. HE ASKED HER TO MARRY HIM BEFORE I EVEN MOVED OUT OF THE HOUSE. you've got to be kidding me. and then he had the audacity to send my FATHER an email about how he felt like he got screwed for personal gain by my not disclosing my pregnancy before the paperwork was signed. talk about a hypocrite. he refinanced our house with her and lied the entire time about seeing someone and being engaged. that fucktard should be GRATEFUL that i didn't divorce him for adultry - he'd be paying me a rediculous amount of money that he can't afford...basically, he'd have ended up in jail. i'm so disappointed in myself for falling for his bullshit and for marrying someone so obviously messed up, for trusting someone who never thought it was worthwhile to be honest or faithful.

note to all friends: if you see me in the compnay of ANY LOSER GUY, you have my permission now to walk up to me and slap me upside the head. NO MORE LOSER GUYS ARE ALLOWED TO FUCK UP MY LIFE. NO MORE FAILED MARRIAGES OR BASTARD CHILDREN. SLAP THE BACK OF MY HEAD, LADIES, I MEAN IT!

speaking of bastard children, i don't really think of mine so negatively. just making a point. however, jimmer is interested in going to the ultrasound i have to have in december. we'll see if he follows through on it. i don't feel like i can tell him he CAN'T go, because he IS the father.

i have to have the second ultrasound because i'm at risk for pre-term labor. my placenta is placed low right now, covering my cervix. i'm at risk for bad cramping and severe bleeding prior to my delivery date, and if i were to start either the cramping or bleeding, they may choose to take the baby right then. if my placenta rises, i will be in the clear until my due date. if i make it to my due date and the placenta stays where it is, i will have to have a c-section. however, if it doesn't rise, they will probably schedule a c-section before my due date to avoid complications. i have this ultrasound in december - i'll keep you updated.

on a better note, i am working at greenspring village in the pharmacy with my mom now. we commute together (so we stop to get starbucks together every morning), spend 9-5 working together, and live together. some people might think they'd get sick of their mom with THAT much togetherness....i'm just lucky i guess. lucky that she's been so willing to help me get the job and let me live with her and my dad and basically upturn their lives over my pregnancy.

i'm excited for thanksgiving - TWO thanksgiving dinners are in my future. that's right, be jealous. i'll be in philadelphia at my aunt and uncles, seeing my cousin brandon, his wife kat, and their three girls - Lane, Camille, and baby Eve, another cousin jason, and his wife kristin - who is exactly 2 months behind me with their first baby! all these babies in our family!! you'd think someone would have figured out what causes that by now....anyway, then my family is having a thanksgiving dinner on saturday - we're waiting because my brother has to work on thursday at the airport. i'm excited, but all that turkey and mashed potatos aren't going to help me at my next doctor's appointment.

just figured i should update the blog since i hadn't since the ultrasound. i should have another new belly pic up soon - keep your eyes open!!