Is it October yet?

Another helicopter crash today. The worst since January 2005. And it includes guys from Task Force Lightning - George's group. And George has gone out on a helicopter with the guys to fix vehicles that were stranded. I completely understand WHY they block communications from the base (phones, internet, etc) so that the military can notify the families the proper way and so the families don't hear bad news through an e-mail or an instant message. But it's so hard not knowing if my husband is safe. I don't know if George remembered to update his "next-of-kin" address so they know who to notify and where to find me. It's so frustrating and sometimes scary just waiting for him to get online sometimes.

I'm just going to sit here and wait....nothing else I can really do, right? I love the people who think I sit around all day and do nothing....Not only am I busy with Brady or packing or running errands, I get to wonder every day if my husband is safe and if he's going to come home.

I hate being scared every time there an article that pops up on msn.com or when I see a news report on tv. Most of the day, we keep the tv on the Sprout channel - prechool programming 24 hours a day, for Brady - but he's taking a nap.

My thoughts and prayers go out to the families who are being notified right now. I'll just continue praying I'm not one of those families. Doing so makes me feel selfish and horrible - like I'm hoping for someone else to have to deal with the pain and sorrow so that I don't have to. I think it's the one thing that makes military wives selfish. For the majority of our marriages, the service comes first. We are left at home to manage the bills, the potential problems that come up and the children while our spouses go off to war. We deal with the deployments, knowing it's part of the job, part of what we married in to. We essentially share our spouses with the military. A pretty large gift in any marriage, I would say!! But we are selfish when it comes to our spouses health and safety.

I hope you're safe, George. Maybe we have some kind of code or system for when the internet goes down - maybe you can buy something small (like gum) to just show me that you're able to swipe your card and that it wasn't you? I'd appreciate something like that....

On a happier note, check out my busy little man, sitting and playing all by himself!

Coming Along...

So the apartment that we thought we lost is again ours! I'm the shit. I was able to track down all the info we needed to fix the glitches on the credit report, and our lease starts September 7. Mom and I are flying to Hawaii with Brady on September 12 in FIRST CLASS - I'm super stoaked about that. Thanks to Dad's upgrades with the mileage points he earns, it didn't cost us anything extra to upgrade. AND we bought me a round-trip ticket because it was cheaper, so I'll have the other half to use for the next 12 months if there is an emergency back home. Otherwise, it will be used to travel one leg for free!! We'll have a hotel the first night or two and a rental SUV for the first week to help get bigger things to the apartment - then it's all on us to get George's car and get it back to the apartment.

Whitney is coming to visit at the end of the month - I'm so excited! Not that there is a TON to do here, but I'm looking forward to having someone my age to go out with and I just miss my best friend! This Hawaii thing sounds pretty sweet in theory, but it's going to be crucially hard to be away from my friends for so long. Brady will turn 6 months old while she's here....I cannot believe that he's already so old!!

I was right about people kinda disappearing once I moved....the only person who keeps in regular contact from VA is Whitney - the rest of my friends that I talk to regularly are people who were already scattered through the country. It's sad....I didn't think I'd lose everyone, and maybe everyone is just busy - but it's August. It's "vacation month." I guess I just figured it would be easy to stay in touch, at least at first.

I have ticker's posted on my mommy message boards, but I figured I'd copy/paste them over here for my own quick reference. YAY that the time just keeps going by!!








Brady is doing well! He's starting to scoot in a circle and scoot backwards and he's getting stronger (just ask my scalp every time he grabs my hair). We practice sitting everyday - some days are good, some days aren't so good. He's learning, and it's REALLY funny on the "not so good" days when he just flops over, lol. Maybe that sounds mean, but I think it's funny!

Had to buy him a new carseat already - he's too big for the infant carrier already! I'm going to ask mom and dad to keep the infant carrier/carseat here for the next baby - it's gender neutral, so I will use it again, especially since there were no accidents in this seat and because I kept it in really good condition. I also bought a small umbrella stroller and some new toys - both of which will be going on the plane with us! The new toys are a given for the flight to keep him entertained, but the new stroller was a trial and error thing Whitney and I discovered when we went to Buffalo with Brady - my current stroller is fantastic, but it is TOO BIG for the airport. The new stroller is just a little umbrella stroller - perfect for the airport and quick errands now that I don't have the infant carrier anymore. UGH, it's going by too fast!!!

It's hard when you want one aspect of your life to slow down, but you want the rest of it to hurry up!